final decision making

final decision = balik kampung…

finally after few days of deep thoughts and conversation with my bro, i have decided to go back home. i dont know what came across my mind, i just told my mom i want to go back, maybe because most of my friends here and gone back to their home country, starting to feel the loneliness here.

a friend asked me whether i was sad when i told my mom. honestly, i wasn’t, i was quite excited.. my mom asked me to go back either November or December. but suddenly i just asked her why now Aug, Sept or Oct…hm… but then there is a lot i need to settle here. all my goods at home.. in the afternoon i went through my place and realised that i have to sell almost all of the stuffs here. now typing this in my living room, looking across, i think i am going to miss this home. when i first came to this apartment, it was empty. then i decorated this place on my own, moved everything from the old house to this empty place on my own.. bought the new bed, bed frame, kitchen utensils and everything on my own.. this is my home already.. for the past few years i have been living in this place, my comfortable zone… where i sleep and eat most of my time..when i go back home, it is still home, not just a different feeling. everything when i talked to my mom about home, most of them i will be talking about my melbourne home.. coz i started everything from scratch..

my god, i think when i go back,I will definitely miss this place and my privacy where i can do whatever i want here with no disturbance.. no need fight over the TV control, and many others..