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dubai or not

Jessica Lim — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 15:41:49 +0000

dubai for three days.. still hesitating whether i should go. $1000+ only ticket.

good and bad

Jessica Lim — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 15:21:20 +0000

Life now for me is utterly boring.. I had been sleeping eating and still sleeping and eating. Everyday i will wake up at noon (although I am awake by 9, i will voluntary let my body continuing lying on my bed till it’s time). Then i will have my lunch and read my newspapers while watching TV. I will feel bored after that and will take doing my routine exercise. Sometimes i cant be bothered, then i will continue to lie on my bed playing my iphone or daze blankly at nothing. Around 4-5, sometimes shower, sometimes will go down and do my cycle exercise. By six, dinner should be ready on the table, then dinner time. Watch TV till around 10 or 11. Go to my room and sit in front of the computer and surf or most time watch my downloaded movies. This have been my routines for the past few months. There are only times where my routine will be different, on weekends, docs’ appointment or visit my grandma.

Well, the only day i enjoyed most is when i went for my massage. I did the stone therapy, heard it is good for blood circulation. It is just using the hot steaming stone and rub it along the veins. I feel so good after the two hours massage. Before massage, my left knee was still swollen and i know it is because of the blood circulation. During the therapy, she told me my leg is swollen and feel hot, then after that, she ask me to see my knee and it used to be one size bigger and now it is almost the same as my right knee. I was so surprised and amazed. By just during the 2 hrs, it completely swelled down. i tried using the ice packs for months and it didn’t helped much. she also told me my blood was blocked around my ankle, that’s why when i walked, it always felt painful and she also said it was swollen there. she also advised i should go again.. i will… ehhe

then last few days went for my physio session and it is review time (means doctor checkup). I think i met with all the doctors in physio and he is the best. the last few doctors i met, when i tell them about my problems,i.e. where hurts and i cant bend further, they just disregard me and say.. just continue exercise. they also keep saying ‘ by this time after your surgery, you should be fine, should be able to run’. but they should know not everyone’s healing process is the same. they keep saying as if i dont know my progress. who dont want to heal faster.. i already told them i can’t continue further, they din’t do anything, just say keep exercising. there was once i was unable to completely straighten my leg, because i just come back from KK and my legs hurt. they just say…your operation was months ago, you should be able to straighten and bend your leg completely…. stupid… feel like hitting them.

the new one i consult, at least he listened. then he wanted me to try to push my leg further back. so he pressed on my bended knee and i have to pull my lower legs towards me. I really hurts even without me pulling. then by the third try, i pulled and i can feel the rush (just like when you cracked your fingers). it really hurt , cant even move nor straighten my leg, but i know i need to straighten to make it feel better.after that, really feel better. then he gave me a different set of exercise..and he said my hamstrings are still weak after the operation that’s why it hurts sometimes. Now it still hurts,but i just have to do things slower.. how i wish i can recover fully now.. at least now, when i walk, it doesn’t look like i am limping, i can run a bit, but looks a bit weird.

in denial..

Jessica Lim — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 16:07:46 +0000

I was told to update my blog, but nowadays i really got nothing to to update because i have been sleeping and eating, sleeping and eating. I haven’t been going out much as well, just hibernating at home. only at times when my mom called to ask to go to grandma’s house, going out with aunties, lunches and grocery shopping. Another reason why i would be out would be the time where i will pay my visit to the hospital for my physio rehab. I had been to the physio got 7 times, leg are getting better. but sometimes my mom and I would wonder if my recover would speed up and recover if i was doing all these in Melbourne. Although it will cost a lot, but i think it would be worthwhile. But since i am back in Brunei, might as well put up with all these, at least there are some recoveries, better than nothing. Guess i have to do more exercises to speed it up. Really can feel the inconvenience when doing daily routines.

When i get to my bed, i can climb and jump to my bed. I need to sit down on the edge and push my legs up to get into the bed. i cant run and jump. when i am walking down the stairs, i need to walk like the babies, one step at a time. unlike previously i will just jump and skipped one step. but things are getting better. that was weeks after the surgery. Now, at least i can walk up and down normally but with a little resistance from my knee, i have to move slowly. i won’t write how it was right after the surgery. i will leave that for another day…

what have i been doing lately beside sleeping and eating? something just came up… my stuffs from melbourne had arrived. All 21 boxes.. finally. but the house is too crowded and i have no place to put them to. my room now is full of my mom’s clothes, my previous room is full of my brothers’ stuffs. my old old room is taken over.. my stuffs would just have to stay put inside the boxes for months because we cant do much moving or renovating around the house, just for the baby that is on the way. but at least i could get some out of the way… my keyboard piano, my hi-fi, some clothes.. but i think there are around 10 boxes left.

anyway, will be going to KK soon with the girls.. but i will enjoy it due to my injury.. my mom was having a bad time because my dad actually disapproved of me going when my mom told him. but i bought the ticket and my dad dint say a word to me.. so i just assumed he will let me go..

asked to update.

Jessica Lim — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 15:22:47 +0000

um…….

dont know what to say…

final decision making

Jessica Lim — Mon, 20 Jul 2009 07:26:41 +0000

final decision = balik kampung…

finally after few days of deep thoughts and conversation with my bro, i have decided to go back home. i dont know what came across my mind, i just told my mom i want to go back, maybe because most of my friends here and gone back to their home country, starting to feel the loneliness here.

a friend asked me whether i was sad when i told my mom. honestly, i wasn’t, i was quite excited.. my mom asked me to go back either November or December. but suddenly i just asked her why now Aug, Sept or Oct…hm… but then there is a lot i need to settle here. all my goods at home.. in the afternoon i went through my place and realised that i have to sell almost all of the stuffs here. now typing this in my living room, looking across, i think i am going to miss this home. when i first came to this apartment, it was empty. then i decorated this place on my own, moved everything from the old house to this empty place on my own.. bought the new bed, bed frame, kitchen utensils and everything on my own.. this is my home already.. for the past few years i have been living in this place, my comfortable zone… where i sleep and eat most of my time..when i go back home, it is still home, not just a different feeling. everything when i talked to my mom about home, most of them i will be talking about my melbourne home.. coz i started everything from scratch..

my god, i think when i go back,I will definitely miss this place and my privacy where i can do whatever i want here with no disturbance.. no need fight over the TV control, and many others..

stuuupid me~~

Jessica Lim — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 13:03:04 +0000

last few days, i was being stupid and bored, tried the new sample lotion from Jurlique. Ended up that my skin too sensitive, after 24hrs, my face started have have small lil bumps all over my face especially around my cheeks and nose. at first i thought nothing of it, until i realised the next day when i was touching my face. hmm.. look at the mirror, honestly, i was shocked to see myself like that. left it over the next day and see whether it will get better, but still the same. decided to call mom and .. tada… got scolded for being ‘clever’. she never allow me to use any products on my face. but anyways, after four days, my face is starting to get better and the bumps are not that obvious already. but still can see them when i am under a bright white yellow light.

taken at midnight before the incident

just posting an updated picture of me.. think i getting chubbier, coz have been eating alot. this was taken when one of my relative need her ‘recharge of the day’ at midnight, i was in my PJs and it is winter, so need to cover up. and when i put up my hoops, she say i look like a thief and look a picture of it. there is another shot and i will not post coz that ever make me look more like a thief…

tired and confused ~~

Jessica Lim — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 14:29:55 +0000

been training and working for these few days. only one word, “tiring”. walked around some places i never thought i would step into, but now at least i can say i have been to that area. talked with so many people and got ideas about how things work in the suburbs. really not a place where i would want to work in. too suburbia and really empty. not used to that kind of environment, really used to the city and crowded but not too crowded.

talking this job actually make me realised this is not the kind of job i would be looking for now and in the future. It is real tiring. Hvae ot get to work by 8am and finish work at 6pm. you guys must be saying this is what most jobs are. walking from 8am -6pm non-stop is real tiring.. and there are some days that i was too into my work i dint have my lunch.. dont know how much weight i lost already, but still look the same physically.on the second day of work, i actually went home with a dry sorethroat.

too lazy to continue.. ehhe…

Got my job!

Jessica Lim — Wed, 10 Jun 2009 10:00:18 +0000

Yesterday, i couldn’t sleep because i am super nervous about my interview. Alarm clock at 10am, but i continued sleeping as i reset my alarm to 11.30. So coincidencely, after i closed my alarm, the company called me to remind me about my appointment and checked whether i know my way to the office. Caught a taxi over so i won’t be late. Saw quite a lot of people there, some wearing just t-shirts and jeans. Everyone walked without an expression on their face, so i dont know whether they got their job.

Then, it is my turn. It was the managing director that interviewed me. At first, i was nervous and i told him how i was feeling as it is my first time going for an interview. I think he was nice, asking me whether i know about the haild around Victoria. Then we were like chatting about the weather and by the way, yesterday night, it was raining heavily and big gust of winds, plus it is winter now. So some part of Melbourne were snowing and down here in the city, it was raining ice. This morning, the rain was still falling and at some point, it was hails. You can imagine how cold it is now. Anyway, then he asked me whether i know what the company does. GOod thing, i browsed through their website and was able to blurped something out. After that, he introduced his company and tell me who their big clients are. Talked about training and say that i am going to be with a person (like a buddy system). This person will teach me how to do sales. At that time, i was thinking, do i have to do this buddy system before they employ me? After a while, he said he is happy that i have been accepted and congrats me. I was still blur there, coz where got so fast accept people? He asked me to start work tomorrow, there is a product training session tomorrow from 10.00 – 4.00pm. So this is it!! my first job! A little excited but knows this is not my long-term career. Just gain some experience and see how things work out.

Went shopping at Chadstone after that and bought another jacket. It is not with me now, next time will take a picture with my office jacket. Wanted to go to the Chanel shop, but it was closed for private function. When i peeked inside, can see ladies our age inside. I was thinking, so rich … booked the whole place for them to shop privately. The shop was closed for two days. As usual, raining the whole day again, with the lowest temperature now 8.3 degree.

Freezing cold at my house now..

Following the trends!

Jessica Lim — Tue, 09 Jun 2009 13:13:18 +0000

Really have nothing to do.

I see most of my friends writing a blog, and when i read their blogs, it is fairly similiar, I will say.

But it is fun to see their blogs coz i seldom contact them and keep up-to-date with them. But they

don’t always update their blog and everyday when i visit their blogs, it is always the same topics

from how many weeks ago.

I will follow their paths and follow this boring trend of setting up a blog. Enough complaining.. I’ll

write my first official post.

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I haven’t been doing much lately, barely shopping. Hehe… Just help you all keep up-to-date with me.

Once i got back from Brunei, I was sick for two weeks. Did not get to have a proper sleep, because of the

flu and sorethroat. Thank God, it is not the ‘Swine Flu”, as the number of cases in Victoria is soaring very

fast. After that, relatives were here. Almost everyday, I will say, we go out shopping and eat eat eat.

Gained approximately 2kg which I am not proud of. Up till now, some of them will leave for Brunei soon,

but soon,another batch of them will come. So I think I am going to gain now (really in need of motivation

to go to gym).

Aside from being a tourguide bringing them around, I have been job-hunting at home. Had applied quite

a few jobs, but most of them only replied like two or three weeks later. But yesterday (Monday), I applied

for a job and got a call from them the next day (today), and asked me to go for a interview appointment

tomorrow. To be honest, I am quite scared and nervous right now, as this is the first time I am going for an

interview. Got a tip website from Fenzy. I’d read it, but scared that whatever i read right now, i might forget

it. So, finger-crossed that I am able to passed this interview, then I’ve got a job and there will be no one

pressuring me to go back to Brunei. Hehe.. you all know who i meant.

Anyway, to release my anxiety, when i was shopping just now, browse through a few jackets, and thought i might

as well buy one now and wear it for the interview tomorrow. Browse, browse, search high and low (exaggerating),

saw one and tried it on, but the size too big (size 12). Then I went to ask the salesgirl whether there is any size 10

(my size). They say no, whatever there is on the shelves. I really liked the jacket, so i tried the size 8, not sure

whether it will fit or not, just don’t want to give up. Haha……………. it fits………. of course, without thinking just

buy, because it is a super good bargain. The original price was $139.95, and now Melbourne is on stock-take

sales, now the discounted price was $40. worth it, right? (no one is allow to say no ). straightaway, i am the

proud owner of that jacket. If i got the chance, i’ll ask my relative to take a picture of me with the jacket. I lost

or left my camera in Brunei, so can’t take any nice photos now.

Leave here for now, need to get my sleep. My interview is at 1.30pm (Wednesday, 10/6/09).

Jesse